Hello, dear soul, and welcome to the Light Bears Library. My name is Kate Harmony. In today's journal entry, I want to talk about spring. Because today is the spring equinox here in the northern hemisphere. And so there is a sense for me in southern Alberta now. Um, the snow has all melted. However, we are getting more snow tonight. So hopefully not a lot, and hopefully it will be gone soon. Um, and the green grass will come back and we will get signs of life. That would be really wonderful to help draw me out of my own sense of stuckness a little bit. And so spring, spring for me has always been uh a wonderful time of year. And I used to live on the West Coast where spring was a miracle. And I do hope to return to the West Coast because I know that there are cherry blossoms and tulips and daffodils. Because my Google photos, whenever I, you know, go in there, you know how it shows you, you know, nine years ago or five years ago. It's like, yeah, it shows me all the blossoms that I could be experiencing if I lived there, but don't. Anyway. I um I've been thinking a lot about how to develop my intuition. This is something that I want to because I feel like the spring equinox is a good time to think about what kinds of seeds we want to be planting in our in our lives for the next the next year, right? It's it's a time of of life coming out of the ground and coming out of our own cells, the the the creative energy and and life again. And we come out of hibernation. So I've been thinking about what it is that I want to to grow within my myself, and definitely I want to enhance my intuition abilities because I feel like with so much going on in the world and there's so much conflicting information, well, there always has been and always will be, you know, um, that's just the nature of you know our current, our current civilization. Um but you know, I think it's to to to calm calm the noise, to, to tune out the noise, tune out all the opposing, you know, it's like this is going on, no, this is what's going on, or this is reality, no, this is reality. It's just like it's exhausting. It's exhausting. And, you know, being um an INFP in the Myers-Briggs personality system, so introverted a feeler and an intuitor, maybe that's you, um, and my husband's an INFJ. So we've got a lot of um, a lot of intuiting and feeling going on. Um, but my husband's a very, you know, he's got his his thinking hat. He likes to dig into truth-seeking stuff. And so we're we do like to think about things, obviously, everyone thinks. Um But my strong suit, my strengths lie within making decisions out of my out of my feeling center, out of using, using intuition to bring in information from from the world. And so I want to I want to work on enhancing my ability to intuit as opposed to trying to think or sense what's happening in the world, um, really leaning heavily on on what I'm good at because the world around me sometimes doesn't encourage encourage feeling and intuiting. Right? And maybe it's the same where you are. Um, you know, most of my family are well n are not intuitives, so I want to anyway. So what I found helpful in the past was I used to have a bunch of different kind of sets of cards that I would use to to stimulate my intuition or stimulate my my ability to to sense what's happening within my unconscious or within my conscious to become more clear about what it is that's happening for me. And it's also just fun to use cards. Um and I think for me, you know, having gone through a bit of a Christian phase over the last number of years and and moving through that and beyond that, um, you know, it's it's it it can be it can be a dividing thing, you know, perhaps. But for me, I use it as a way of of reflecting for myself, of, of meditating on, on color and symbols and and what comes up for me. And so I guess going back to what I was saying about the external world and the chaos, I'm wanting to come inward more and rely on my own intuition as opposed to relying on news or books or experts or whatever. It's like that's all fine and good. And I've talked about that a lot on my channel about, you know, looking at both sides of the expert opinion, you know. Um, but I'm feeling quite exhausted by all of all of that sort of seeking and trying to find and navigate my way through through the noise. So I was thinking that I could use, you know, um, specifically tarot cards, but I have found really beautiful cards that um I used to have soul cards, and they're just beautiful images that, you know, it's like what there's no interpretation. The interpretation is what we we feel. And that's kind of how I want to use the the tarot cards is not by using a book. I I I got rid of all my books um when I went through my Christian phase. But um, so I got rid of all my books, and now I'm feeling like um I want to use the cards to to just to play, to play and have fun. Because I think intuition is such a it can be playful. Um it can also, if you're an INFP, spin spin us into catastrophizing about the future, right? Um, because we can in intuit that there's all sorts of things that can happen and um being like, I don't know. So I'm trying to steer my intuition, steer my, yeah, in in a in a way that is helpful to me as opposed to fear and catastrophe, because that doesn't help anyone. I don't know about you. Does catastrophizing ever ever work for you? I don't know. So um so I wanted to share with you what I pulled this morning. Um and it's uh the I don't know if it'll focus. It's the Two of Pentacles. And so I pulled this and again I don't have any any books to look at. And um but I just thought it was interesting, this sort of um infinity sing symbol of in the middle, and it's kind of got the two loops and these two discs. You know, I do know that the pentacles are um sort of represent the the earth and earthiness and the material world. So, you know, uh he's kind of like he he looks like he's he's juggling these these two pentacles and um and so I was thinking about we we need there's like this I I do feel like there's kind of a a juggling inside of me of even the even the going back to the functions of feeling versus thinking, of intuiting versus sensing, and and kind of having to find that that balance. And each one of us, I believe, is uniquely made. I believe we're unique individual souls. Um but personality theory does help me to to see how how I'm our strengths and our weaknesses, and so kind of feeling like I'm juggling a bit of a bit of the the cognitive functions as they're known of of feeling and thinking, but um kind of getting the right balance for me. And I don't know about you, but uh it's like when when I don't lean on those those things, life tends to go in the wrong direction. No, I think I take that back because I really believe that everything happens for a reason, and so that that helps me. That's a belief that helps me get through hard times when things are hard and I'm like, I don't know why this is happening, and I really wish it wasn't happening. It helps me to kind of just take a deep breath and go, okay, I don't know what the reason is. I don't know what it is that I'm necessarily learning from this experience, but I know that there will be some learnings, there will be growth and wisdom that comes out of this tense situation or whatever I'm going through. And even having moved, like I said, moved to southern Alberta from from the West Coast in BC, I a large part of my wishes I hadn't moved here, but I know there were reasons that I I had to come here to learn who my family were, and that I there just wasn't it wasn't ever going to mesh. I needed to so I followed my heart here, which wanted to come and be an auntie, but I wasn't necessarily wanted. Um, so or wanted in the way that I show up as me. Um it's kind of like, oh, can you show up as someone else? It's like, no, this is this is who I am. Um so my heart now is like, well, why am I here? Why am I here? And I want to just go back to the coast where I feel, I feel like I belong. So that's where I'm currently at is sensing, intuiting, trying to figure out what the next move is from here, um, whether it's to stay in Alberta or to go to the coast, which is where my chosen home is. And my husband's chosen home is. You know, he's really struggling with this foreign landscape. He grew up in in, you know, Southern Africa, South Africa, where it's definitely not like this. And um yeah, so he's used to temperate climates and green, green and life. So that's kind of where we're at, at the precipice of of the spring equinox, is deciding. Well, I guess this is why I'm wanting to really expand my intuitive powers at this moment, because uh there's another there's another step involved in in where we're gonna live. And that really will shape shape the the coming years ahead for us. And I think it's really important to take the time necessary to get clear on what it is that we're feeling and intuiting. It's like we've got all the thoughts. All the thoughts are are listed, right? It's like the pros and the cons and and it's like f for us, that's great, but it's it doesn't it doesn't make the decision. The the the the thinking doesn't make the decision necessarily. It's it's the it's the feeling and the intuitive that that make the decision. And so that's why I'm trying to be like, okay, I need to get serious about you know, being quiet in the mornings and you know, pulling a card every day and just listening for what it is that is being called for. And so I would offer to you that, you know, if you're making some decisions in your life that are going to be big for you, knowing more and more about yourself, like knowing I was um an INFP was is so helpful to me. Self-knowledge, right? And and knowing I was a highly sensitive person, it shapes and changes the the decisions that I'm going to make for my life. Like our next place, like I don't want to live under a family with a dog. Like that was not a good decision, you know. But it is, it it's been it's been lovely. You know, she's a lovely landlord. Um, so it's been nourishing in terms of not having drama. Um but yeah, self-knowledge, sorry, self-knowledge and about how we make our decisions, the clearer we are on who we are, then we can lean into what we're what we're good at, and in terms of, you know, are we a feeler or a thinker? And then letting that be the final decider. Like my heart wants to live in the forest. My heart doesn't want to deal with cold for most of the year and brown for most of the year, and snow potentially every month of the year, you know? So yeah. Anyway, I feel like um I have rambled a little bit in this one, but I just, these are my musings on my world today, and I'm hoping that for you, take this as a way of saying, yeah, I need to get in touch with who I am, learn more about myself through journaling, through tarot cards, through whatever, whatever means, like, and these can be fun, fun things. I think we need more play in our life and and fun. I don't know about you, but life feels so serious, and it it is in on on the one hand, you know, and maybe that's kind of like the the juggling man that he's got. Like, you know, it's the yin and the yang. We need we need serious and we need fun and we need light and we need dark. You know, we can't have one we can't have one without the other. It's like both. And so, yeah, just reflecting on that. Anyway, please do let me know in the comments if this has sparked any intuitions of your own. 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