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Hello, dear soul, and welcome to the Light Bears Library. My name is Kate Harmony. In today's journal entry, I want to talk about whether our lives and the events that happen in them are in the hands of fate or in the hands of our own psychology. Now, this has come up for a couple of reasons. One, because yesterday I made a video and I was talking about my move from the coast to Alberta and with my husband and thinking that that I was a really big mistake. And then I said, No, I think that everything happens for a reason and that there's lots that I've learned because of it. And one of my lovely YouTube um subscribers commented about how, you know, he he he posted the quote by Young, which says, Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate. And he's so right. And I was like, okay, you're right. It's not about fate because when I reflect on the decision to move here, and now having learned more about my own psychology and more about my husband's psychology, it was like, okay, well, no, it was our own psychology that got us here. And um, so I don't, I don't, I don't believe it was fate. Of course it was our own psychology. I think it's just, you know, when when I get into a place of being tired and overwhelmed with m my own psychology and the fact of that I have so much work to do, um it it kind of feels like it's just easier to say, oh, well, everything happens for a reason.

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But of course, it's our own psychology that is is moving us in in ways that we either are conscious of or unconscious of. And he said something else that I thought that was really, really wonderful. He said, meaning unexamined fears, patterns, and repressed emotions shape a person's life, which they then mistakenly attribute to external destiny rather than their own inner psychology. So again, along those lines of of it comes back to knowing ourselves, knowing our own psychology, and it's so difficult to do that sometimes because we can't it we do we it's easier almost for other people to see us more clearly than ourselves, you know, because we've we've hidden things, repressed things or suppressed things, whatever, you know, whatever. It's it's like we don't want to look, we don't want to look at it, we don't want to see it. And over the last week or to it's I've noticed a lot of anger in in inside, and it's uncomfortable to just sit with that, to acknowledge it, to say, okay, you know, there's a lot of anger towards my my mom and my my family members, and to not to not push it away and say, no, I forgive them, you know, I forgive them, love and peace, like, you know, it's like I I so badly just wanna wanna just like let it go, let the anger go, and and it's it's like I'm I'm working through it, um, but it doesn't happen like that. So if you're feeling anger or or deep, deep emotions that stem from, you know, years and years of stuff, you know, it's just just be gentle. Just be gentle. And it's like it's it's it's difficult to kind of undo it ourselves. So I'm also reading this book called, um, or not a book. Well, it's it's a collection of essays by Carl Jung. And um, this, the one that I'm reading is called The Undiscovered Self. And I want to read a little bit of to you because it was it was really um a really good reflection. He's talking about um projections. So what I was doing is I'm taking whatever what the situation I was talking about earlier. It's kind of like I was taking the the my move here, and instead of saying, no, it was it was m mine and my husband's psychology that got us here. And um, you know, and kind of saying, Oh, you know, it's it was just fate or or like it happened for a reason. Um it was my way of kind of projecting that onto fate, I guess, um, if that made sense. It made sense in my head. So I don't know. But he says um the necessary corrective. So he's talking about our projections onto other people and and the shadow aspects of ourselves. So our own anger, our own, our own dislike of of people or places or governments or whatever it is that we're, you know, that we have this, this I don't know what the right word is. This battle inside of ourselves, like that we have hate, I guess, hatred towards or dislike of, or it stimulates a sense of reaction in us. So looking at those places, I think, is important and going, okay, what is it that I'm projecting onto the other person or the other government or the other country or the other people, whatever. Um, kind of just just look into this. And he's saying, because because that's a really divisive thing when we're projecting our stuff onto others, it divides us. Um so he's saying the lack of responsibility for our own shadow and nothing promotes understanding and rapprochement more than the mutual withdrawal of projections. This necessary corrective demands self-criticism, for one cannot just tell the other person to withdraw them. He does not recognize them for what they are any more than one does oneself. And this is exactly it, right? We we when we're not really trying to be so aware of what it is that we might be projecting on other people, like me with my family members. It's like, oh no, he's the one with the problem. You know, he's the one that's rejecting me, he's the one that's, you know, it's like all these things. It's like, okay, okay, but where am I projecting my stuff onto him? And um we can recognize our prejudices and illusions only when, from a broader psychological knowledge of ourselves and others, we're prepared to doubt the absolute rightness of our assumptions and compare them carefully and conscientiously with the objective facts. And um, and then lastly, I'll just share this bit. Um, so he's saying that um I only know uh he says it it needs time to bring about psychic changes that have any prospect of enduring. Insight that dawns slowly seems to me to have more lasting effects than fitful idealism, which is unlikely to hold out for long. So that we need to slowly become more and more reflective of our own psychology, becoming more aware. And this is why I love Jung in particular, and um, and that's why I love the MBTI, you know, typology, um that it helps us to know ourselves better, to dig into what makes us tick and why we why we do the things we do, because otherwise we just go, oh, I'm a victim, oh it's fate, oh it's whatever, when really it's like we need to be doing the in inner work, reflecting on what you know we're projecting to take the projections back and go, okay, no, that's my stuff. And when we do this, we will have much healthier relationships. Well, one for starters with ourselves will be a more whole being, you know, because we all have light and dark or light and shadow within us, you know, it's not just evil people out there and bad people over there and bad countries, and it's like, okay, wow, no, no, it's it's in every single one of us. And so when we take responsibility for the shadow parts of ourselves, for the parts of ourselves. And this is why um actually, this is a total tangent, but um it's it's something that I think about often because my husband and I, we, it's our one little pleasure. We watch um a murder mystery show um based in the Caribbean. And so it's our way of getting to sunshine and good vibes when it's the middle of winter here. Plus, it's also just fascinating. We love solving mysteries and um, you know, there's other things that, you know, that's like the the murder part. But but but the point is is that, you know, you watch these these people that are just normal everyday people. And you know, this one this one uh episode in particular, it was this woman who had had not dealt with all of the internal rage in her. And she was just like a normal, everyday, lovely woman. And but something happened and she just kind of lost it and ended up like choking this woman to death. And the thing is, is that it's like that lives within all of us, that that capacity, if we don't, if we don't look at those parts of ourselves, if we don't deal with the the inner anger, the inner rage, the inner whatever. And everybody has it, I think. Um, because you know, if you dig into it, you you'll also think the same. Um but it doesn't feel nice to kind of say, yeah, I've got that inside of me. Like we just want to be love and light and and um but the thing is is we can be more loving to ourselves and others when we've recognized the whole of ourselves and we won't get into situations like this woman in the murder mystery, um, that that like our psychology takes over and that that part of ourselves that we've not looked at doesn't take over. So we can be more loving to ourselves, more loving to others. So when we take back the projections that we're putting onto them, you know, we can see them clearly. We can see their light. Like if it's someone that, you know, from another country or another ethnicity or another, whatever, like anybody that you or or maybe your own ethnicity that you have, you know, they think differently and you, you know, there's there's that tension, when you take back the projection and you just see them clearly, you know, you see why they think the way they think, and recognize that if if we had their lives with exactly everything that happened, we would be them. We would think the same way as them. We would we would act the same way as them. So it's it's finding this, finding within ourselves all the all the parts becoming more and more whole allows us to love other people regardless of what they what they think or what they what they act. It doesn't mean that their actions are okay, in my eyes. Like I think everybody needs to take responsibility for for their actions. Um so yeah, I think I think it's important because in in this world that we're living in, everyone we're just so divided and so atomized into, you know, just just little yeah, we the the the the knit, the warp and weft, you know, the the the fabric of our society seems to have just kind of disintegrated. And, you know, even even my own family, uh it's it's there's n it just isn't working because, you know, I've done a lot of work, I've got a lot of work left to do. But when those in my family are just clueless and living from this place of so much rage um that they're not looking at and and they would deny but it's clear to me. And then to see that show up in their in their kids, the rage of in a three-year-old. Um it's it's heartbreaking. And but it also just means that uh it it just it it divides us. So when we look at ourselves, perhaps, perhaps intuitively, perhaps counterintuitively, depending on where how you're looking at it from, we you know, we I lost what I was saying. Uh that when we look at each other, I don't know. Anyway, you can maybe finish the thought that I forgot. I did get more sleep last night, but I'm still catching up. Anyway, that was probably the end of what I needed to say. But just a little bit and and to end with little bit by little bit what Carl Jung was saying, that's all we can do. So taking it one day at a time and just trying to to incorporate little bits of of the shadow aspects of ourselves, acknowledging, acknowledging the anger that we feel and as opposed to just saying, like, oh, I forgive them. That's kind of what I what I've maybe done in the past. It's like, no, I'm really, really, really, really angry, you know, at being what I feel is like being abandoned and being mistreated and whatever it is. But but our little person inside needs to have that, those, I think of it as a little person. I don't know if that's how young, like whatever. It's just like our inside, we need to acknowledge the emotions that we have, even when those emotions are come uncomfortable. Anyway, if you have had any experience with with this shadow work or with looking at yourself fully about taking back the projections, I would love to hear from you about how that journey has been for you, or maybe you're in the midst of it, or how it's impacted your life. Um, I would really love to hear from you because you know, we need to support one another in doing this work because it's it's lonely and it's hard. It's very hard. And um, but it's so necessary to take responsibility for our own psychology and to not push it off on fate or whatever it is that we might might do. So, yes, please do please do comment below. I would love to hear from you. And um if this was helpful to you, um please give me a thumbs up and subscribe to the Light Bears Library. I would love to have you here. Thank you for joining me today. Wishing you so many blessings, signing off for now, XOXO Kate.