Hello, dear soul, and welcome to the Light Bears Library. In today's journal entry, I want to talk to empaths, to people with big hearts who care about other people and about the world. People like me who have sensitive sensitive hearts that care and because I'm feeling like the world could not give a shit about our empathy. They don't want it. They don't care. They don't like they don't they don't want it. It's like mind your own business. They want us they just because they don't want to care back. What I'm feeling today is I'm feeling like I'm feeling like no one cares about me. And so I'm feeling um like I don't know why I'm here. I don't know what the point of life is right now. I'm feeling like it's meaningless because when I open my heart and I care about the people that are around me and I'm sensitive to what their needs are. I, you know, I I all the things that we do as empaths that care, um, it just feels like they soak it in. They love it. They love it. I mean, the world, of course, wants our empathy in that way. It's like, you know, because then they can just walk all over our boundaries, walk all over us, and and because they don't have the empathy. They don't, they don't care. They're looking out for themselves, they're looking out for their own problems and emotions and stuff. And and I I get it. I have empathy for that, you know. Like, yeah, we're all dealing with stuff, and I'm not perfect. I'm not perfect. I've dropped the ball on people when I'm dealing with my own stuff, and I would wish to have to have the empathy that I give other people when life is is is pretty hard. And life sometimes it just feels harder every day. And you know, I'm sure I could find all sorts of reasons why I'm feeling this way today. Tired, you know, whatever, whatever. Um, but sometimes I just want to feel what I feel and not um overanalyze it and say, yeah, but you know, I'm probably, you know, hormonal, I'm probably tired, like all the things. It's like, yeah, and I'm I'm feeling hopeless and angry. I'm feeling angry, angry about caring. Like I today I just feel like I wish I could. I wish I could not care so much care so much about other people like and and strangers and and dogs and like the way people treat their dogs. It's just like it makes me feel what the dog's feeling, and um anyway I just wish the world. I really want to turn the camera off right now, but if you're feeling this way, you're not alone. I just wish the world was a little more kind and a little more thoughtful for other people's situations. And I'm just thought about other people because and it's like it doesn't it doesn't matter. It's like my family's the same way, they don't have the the empathy, they don't have the thinking and feeling outside of themselves. It's like they my family is just like most people out there, they just don't care, and and in this world it just which is just there's so much suffering it's not g it feels like it's harder and harder to keep caring, but I don't know how to shut it off. And so when when I've been so caring and empathetic to someone, and then they react if they they do something that's completely careless and unempathetic, it just really hurts, and that's why I'm angry, and then but then I'm like, oh yeah, no, and then I feel empathetic for their for their treating me badly, and it's just anyway today today. This is what what is happening for me, and I'm feeling like I'm not entirely certain what the point of like living in this world is right now, and and I struggle and fight against that because it's like we make we make I I I have to believe that we make our own meaning, we have to find our own meaning for our lives, and you know, some people do that through having kids, and some people do that through religion, and some people, you know, do that through maybe connection with nature, and I feel like that's what I'm missing in my life is that connection with nature because it's real, and it um, but it's so hard. Like today it's like the end of March, and we've got another like two, two inches of snow, three inches of snow, and I'm just like, I just need some flowers and some life to feel like I I'm alive, and because I guess that's another thing with with feeling and empathize, like I just there's not there's no life out there. I mean, there there is. There's some rabbits, some jackrabbits, some magpies. But I don't know where to find the meaning right now. And I guess I'm also just you know, our move is coming up here, like we now, like our landlord told us today, like she's got an offer, hopefully, that goes through, and we need to be out of here May 1st. So that means we have to find a place. And I just really don't want to move. I mean, I want to move out of this place, it's so noisy, and upstairs they're just so angry, and there's just so much chaos, and so I need to leave. But it's so much energy and effort and money to move, and I just everything feels pointless. Oh, I'm sorry. But I hope I hope you can I hope you can empathize. And know that if you feel some of what I'm feeling, you're not alone, and it's it's a crazy world we're living in. And I'd love for you to share in the comments what meaning it is that it like fills you up every day. What what do you get out of bed for? What what helps you to overcome the obstacles when you're faced with them? You know, what you know, I I I think that's important to share because it just seems like the world has given up on meaning. It's given up on caring about the sanctity of life and about individual unique souls mattering. And it's just kind of um, yeah. So I I know, I know this is something I I'm like, there's this like internal battle and maybe external battle happening between, you know, hopelessness and meaning. And I think, you know, I'm I'm gonna I'm gonna continue to strive for meaning. Um, but there's just days where it feels like what's the point in in in struggling for that? And maybe, maybe I uh yeah, I don't know. Anyway, I would love to hear from you. I hope you're well and I wish you so many blessings signing off for today. XOXO Kate.